RiftTrains collide through a fist of hot snow. Her eyesand mine. Soot against the thick storm skin,flashing metal and scraping bones, the earthscreams something primal. She looks awayand through the peppered sparks of firea silence prevails. Quiet lips say too much. I follow spotted horsesto the meadow, the waterfall is broken, andI see her mouth make fog. Lumps of coalare stacked in the distance, making a hut.I do not enter, the windows are tied to the skywith knots.9am there was a rift in the evermore. They saidthe sky belted open, stars wept plasma coffins,and out of the dew she put one foot,then the other. In her left hand there was a blue fig.I could not see the other. The arctic sun setand a desert sun rose. Her hair was put back with paperclips, glimmeringin the cold light. I fell into a vat, watchinga thousand four hornets unnest from behind her. I felt high,but sank deeper until I touched bottom. She pulled at me
Bad Mouth Habitsi.I carry God around in my lip like he's chew,spitting his name out in poems like potholes,I make everything a similefor the hold he has on me.ii.When it comes to men,I've the appetite of a Roman housewife,I take, I taste, I tear,swallow and then then toss upfor the next course.iii.I don't kiss anyone so dearlyas the glass pipe bridged between lipsand fist.iv.Jameson, you're an Irish Lad,a young ram of bucking proportions,I let you rattle around my mouthtil I herd you inand down.v.Sometimes there's nothing so sweetas the jack-hammer of angry wordsor the steel trap clamp of silence.I exercise m
Oh CatherineOh Catherine, I've found your letterand your name is left tremblingon my tongueYou have been, till now, nothing;the woman in the dream,impalpable sylph, a silver sliverof night-terror flickerbut oh, I recognize your scentand I can see you now— dark hair cut into violent angels a fallen angel's ache—and when he comes home tonight,I'll smell licorice on his breathand I'll know that he has told you Oh Catherine,Your windfall is taking me with itI am listening to the sound of youbreaking my heart
prey.i'm a collection of curves in your cycle: a single revolution of your rhythm, my taste a mile marker.my hunger is satisfied by your rapture,and devoured by your voracity.starving to be grasped, claimed,and consumed, I feed death— give in,swallow black relief —your belly roundand warm with the scrapings of my bones. bury my leavings and tell me reincarnationis a lie.--1/16/2013Copyright © 2013 Jen FowlerAll Rights Reserved
AcquittalWon't you leave me? I will love youmore than if you stay, transfixedto the point of reference, our bodiesmelding a sad, soft sublime, the backspine of a little universe blown outlike a crafter's hot glass, the growingmoment, the wonder, the expansionbefore a chill.
SpringSummerEach night, an autumn-Blossoms skydive suicide,leaving branches bare.
Pestilenceall of God’s children sleeptogether and count the falling sheep,stars nestled in their eyes as theyprey upon the crumbling walls;God loves all his children and I am the orphan with an asphalt blanket; clouds scorn me and I mourntheir wasted hatred(my eyes, my broken plasticlooking glasses; my hands,termite ridden and frost bitten;my heart, worm holed and seeking absolvance)what’s there behind these echoedwords? divisions of another from a better time, I have begun to live and lie with no consequencebecause that little toxic feeling floating in my chest likes to poison everyone I’ve ever met,and I&rsqu
Regarding ProtocolThissunriseis not whatI imagined--the breathless tide of a love I can't keep.
with thanks to salingerAudio version.it's on those cold morningswhen you are nothing but indrawn breathswirling and knitted up inside too-bigskin and weightless bones--when the horizon arches up againstthe half-thawed tendrils of sunriseand smileswith golden teeth,and smiling, begs--it's on those cold morningswhen leaving is easiest.the car will be cold, and you willshiver, and the engine,much too loud,will smack of blasphemybut you will find peace in the steady rollof tarmac and the yellowing lightspilling across it,with dust motes kicked up and carriedlike fish in the undertow.when you come to that firstcrossroads, it will shock you:the way the decision hangs theretrembling and desperate--but there are no right answers and you will nothesitate. and each successive choicewill be made of its own accord,and you will roll the windows down,and draw down the scent of ear
Mosaic LullabyShadow mosaicacross snow-frosted concrete;winter's last portrait.
you asked me to write your eulogybut darling, do not ask such things of a poet. We live with death and feathers in our bones, and you— clouds have purpose, and one is seldom alone in the sky. To say, smart or handsome or funny or caring, it is the lid on the trash, never appreciated till missing, and you—undercover smell of well-waterand thick terra cotta clay,a fallen angel left in smoke-screensomewhere below the salt, the heartstill beats, and you— a mythology come-to-life. Hellion and savior, black-tipped like raven wings, always more in the right light than
Lovebirds' Sorrowshe was the girl with cateyes: broad and judging andcarnal; he was the doewith a broken collarbone,yet she found herself lost inthe warmth of his sighs andasked simply for a setof sweeter lies[because it's only after yousell yourself to the earth thatyou learn love is not a chemical reaction anticipatingevery ignited glance and souredword; no, it is a thing of obligation that sleeps uponyour doorstep, knowing youwill always come back,knowing you could never forgetits name]he called to her on hollownights, and she found hisvoice when she had nowhereleft to gohe was the cereal box savior;she only needed a placeto bur
caring for p(o)etsscribbling down vicious verses on tissue napkins while seated at the corner of a sidewalk cafe is about as romantic, raw and honest a p(o)et -outside of the four corners of your bedpost- can getif you've got that person dreading over drafts and dreams on end -of you, for you-consider yourself a new owner it is now time to tame this p(o)et's perverse maneyou've got your hands on a fragile purebredwhich can be very tricky for first timers
once in the afterlife,breathe and b r e a t h eand breathe...inhalewhat wasleft& burythedeeprootedashesbeneath the earthe n g r a v e din heaven'slungs.
down the rabbit holeYou are a Wonderlandbut I am the wrong Alice.
For Kate, AlwaysFor Kate, AlwaysOur Chaucer, I think, would have sighed.He would have assured us, shaking his sorrowful head,That day the solar system married usWhether we knew it or not --Ted HughesNow that we spent an afternoon with Crow.Now in the breadth of highway between us.Now after your presented death and myWide like a canyon, like the endOf God's whip, I can appreciateOur limestone. Parched. How quicklyWe pressed and built up. How quicklyWe could wear. And don't. I saidI love you For your daughter, for your poemsOf home and mothers, dire wolvesAnd quiet words. I loved you Even for the afternoon you cal
Amy's Baking Company: Not Endorsed by SantaOn Saturday, I decided to sate my curiosity,drive the half hour over to Scottsdale to gawk:Amy's Baking Company, closedafter their distasteful run-in with Ramsey.I was alternating between giggles and voyeuristic gleeat the closed sign hanging smugly in the window,when up pulled a late model family van,off-white and inconspicuous.The driver's eyes twinkled, his cheeks were rosy,as he leaned towards the passenger side and said:"They deserved everything they get, and I'm Santa,"he chuckled, "well, at Christmastime."
CastingWhat was once just a hillNorth of Flagstaff-Charred log bonesbreak through the snow
On the Typewriter, the Morning After
The WitchesThe witches speak a languageclearer than my mother's, the edgeof a blade, crack of broken glass,silky slide of sin, come in, come in, inmy ear, a soft patting drum, thespell bound lullabythey croak and coo, all manner oftone and it is sweet as the summertongue growing fat on hand cart ice creampops, brisk as the Boston cabbies,neither here nor there, they areever here evermore. They areinside me, flapper dancingthe pelvis bones, acutely out ofstyle and carefree, they have me,the potion's daughter, their invitationsheer formality. I am in, I amin, I am deepat the bottom of the cauldron.Do you dare consume me? The womanwho gives cancer out freely and livesto die yet never dies, the sickanomaly. Can you hear them?Press your earto the flat of my skin. I amthe cast-off shell of the sea,hollow and rustling – that, there,that is them – their greedy handsare chanting, come in, come in,
Southern Belle - 4Ray of scattered light -a flicker pearlscrests momentarilyhovers above the waterescaping - a flash of orange -lands back into the mirage